Only Chaos

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Some time during the third hour, if I had done too much LSD, my brain would become completely disassembled. That is to say that all of the normal functions of the cortex would be disrupted. Absolutely nothing would make sense any more. Nothing! Even my beloved Beethoven would become so much musical gibberish. Amazingly, I remember, during one of my later trips, saying to myself as The Chaos approached, 'If you ever do this to me again I'll kill you!'

I presume it was a sort of 'inside joke.'

The lower brain centers kept on truckin' however. LSD does not affect the 'lower brain' and the brain stem, at least so far as life-controlling functions are concerned. I continued to breathe. My heart continued to pump. I did not die. Only my cortex 'died.'

This was an absolutely horrifying situation. That's the bad news. The good news is that my cortex had become so dysfunctional by that time that I was not capable of being horrified. There was no horror, no fear, no pain, no regret, no devil, only chaos.