The Deprogrammed Religious State

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My entire adult life has had as one of its major themes the unlearning of various crap, including the crap of religion. I have always delighted in unlearning ancient religious crap. Over the years of this unlearning I have tested myself periodically with certain religious ideas. I understood early on that my inherited religion was not so much logical as emotional. Furthermore I could see that my 'progress' toward 'non-belief' was more emotional than logical. That is to say that the logic was obvious whereas the emotion was obscure.

So I would periodically test myself with outrageous religious ideas in order to experience my emotional reaction. My emotional reaction would tell me how well I was progressing in my quest for the totally deprogrammed religious state.

My current test for emotional attachment to Catholicism is several years old, indicating a kind of stagnation in my progress toward Atheism or its equivalent. It goes like this: