Am I Crazy?

That is the question. Furthermore that is the question I present to you: I report, you decide. I will agree to the following stipulation: I write this 'under the influence.' Does that make me crazy? I think not. Drunk, maybe, but not crazy. The reason I write this 'under the influence' is that I am a 'happy drunk.' If I wrote this in the sober light of day I would come across to you as bitter. Angry and bitter. But 'under the influence' I am quite happy and I think this narrative confirms that. Furthermore I can from time to time inject some observations in the form of 'redeeming social value.' That is to say I can enlighten you - idiots that you are - while you read this soap opera.

This brings me to the point of questionability. Here is where I ask myself whether I have imbibed too much booze to continue reliably. 'Do they still get my jokes?' 'Am I becoming way too arrogant?' 'Am I pandering?' Am I just too drunk to continue this without being embarrassed in the light of sobriety?' Good questions. So far the answer is, 'not yet.'

But the night is young. There is no question that as this night progresses I will cross that invisible line. My task is to retain that amount of self-awareness which will inform me of the critical point, then STOP. All good things must come to an end and the wisdom is in knowing where. And I fancy myself wise! So tonight I proceed warily, step by step, fixing to end this exactly on the right note. Will I succeed? Will I make a fool of myself again? We'll see.

In the meantime I have determined that tonight's drafts are accurate and reasonable and so I will publish them without further ado. I understand that they are not exactly correct in a political sense. I understand that. But I figure that if my blog is to be censored it might as well happen now. If I am to be muzzled, let it happen now before I have invested (boom) months of energy. If I am indeed muzzled I will go back to my Drog. My comfortable Drog. And so, with that, I hereby launch my latest drafts...

(late entry) The thing refused to publish, so I am back a few days later doing some editing and then republishing. Seems to be working... so far.